A DEEP RAMBLE

I really want to reflect over what I've done this past week; it feels like I haven't achieved much recently. I fear that work has become my new college environment and that my work friends have replaced my college friends.  To me this will never happen, I don't replace anyone in my life, I just expand on my social groups and everyone will always remain special to me.  But I do genuinely fear that people may think this, but please don't. As I was looking through my calander before it dawned on me that over the past ten days I've only had two days off work.  That would suggest to me that I've spent wayyyy too much time working and not enough time playing!

The most memorable event over the past week has deifinetely been my traditional Thursday night out with my friends from work.  I had a delicious three course meal at Frankie and Benny's and then I went on to the weekly student night in town where I downed Archers and lemonade for £1.50, bargain. I love my weekly night out with the girls for food and then usually the guys will join us for the drinks.  Typical boys really, interested in the alcohol.  The night lead onto a night club and then a long taxi ride home.

Although I've socialised quite a bit over the past week, but I've also had a lot of time to think.  Having spent time endlessly over-thinking my future and actually analysing my life I've realised quite a lot.  I am what people would call an over-thinking, self-conscious person who doesn't want to miss out or not be the most worldly. 

I've always been an over-thinker ever since I was younger.  I over-think every aspect of my life and that leads to also being an over-analyser, which is practically what I am doing now... I think too much about things that I'm about to do and how people will perceive my actions.  I worry what people will think of me and if I'll offend them by just being myself.  I'm probably one of the most honest people out there, I don't believe in lies because I personally believe that liars are always caught out in the end, so I worry people will hate me because of my honesty.  My anti-no-lies stance has lost me friends over the years when I've pointed out their blatant lies and that worries me that one day I'll have no-one left, but I know that there's people out there like me.  I worry that my genuine happy approach to life will lose me friend too, because I might be perceieved as fake, but my happiness isn't fake.  This is me over-analysing once again.  I over-analyse every relationship in my life whether it's family, friends or boys.  My ability to over-analyse everything enable me to link events together and create inter-linking theories of utter noncesense. It's probably some weird form of OCD actually.  Although I go through life over-thinking and over-analysing every aspect of my life I believe that my life is a path that has already been planned, so no matter what happens it's meant to happen so I should be happy about it.

Another annoying thing about my personality is that I'm someone who doesn't want to miss out.  This genuinely means that I end up going practically everywhere that I'm asked to go to.  I just have this fear that I might miss out on something great and I don't want to miss the opportunity for fun. 

I love the fact that from the age of 17 I've had a job and that I've had the opportunity to learn to drive.  This is something that not all of my friends have had the opportunity of, so I genuinely value these priceless experiences that I've had.  The fact that I turned 18 so early in the year in contrast to some of my friends from college meant that I've had the chance to experience life as an 18-year-old with friends from work.  This has meant that I've experienced night clubs, resturants and places that other friends haven't yet experienced.  I've also had experiences within these clubs and environments and met people that other friends have yet to experience.  So I will admit that when these friends finally start to experience these things I will start to feel a bit sad about the fact that I'm no longer the most worldly.  I like that fact about myself and I suppose it could be suggested that I am a tad jealous that others are experiencing the wonderful social life that I've experienced over the past 7 months, and I don't like that about myself.  But this is all because I'm fairly competitive in some aspects of my life and I genuinely hate that others are experiecing the same as me and I fear that they'll have more fun at experiencing what I've already experienced or that they'll experience more than me and I won't be the most worldly anymore.

But don't let my little ramble leave a lasting impression on you. I just sometimes over-think and that means I end up chatting complete rubbish. 

THE MOST WONDERFUL DAYS AND WHAT-NOT

(I will be uploading photographs of my Birthday in the next couple of days.  I sadly had to use a friends camera as someone dropped my camera on the pavement outside.  Now the stupid thing won't work.)

Having spent the past couple of days rushed off my feet; I have finally got time to blog about my life.  Friday consisted of having insane fun with my friends and then yesterday consisted of me having an extreme downer in work.

For the first time in forever I had 'natural' hair on Friday for college.  I left it unstraightened and all hideously wavy.  I had quite a few comments on how nice and different it looked, but I generally feel people were just being nice.  The hole point of me leaving it wavy was because I planned on putting my hair in heated rolls when I got in from college.  This plan worked out and I sucessfully managed to leave them in for 3 hours prior to going out.  Literally 15 minutes before leaving the house I took the rollers out and my hair hadn't curled!  I then realised that because I hadn't curled my hair using the heated rollers for at least 6 months that my hair wouldn't curl using them in its current condition.  I've let my hair grow for the past 6 months, so my hair is currently below my waist and very heavy.  So the obvious conclusion was that my hair was too heavy to hold the curl which the rollers would have put in it.  Due to the fact that I had 15 minutes before I had to leave the house I started to panic.  It would be my luck that my hair wouldn't be how I wanted it for my party.  Luckily my Mum curled it for my using the straightners and the curl actually stayed it.  However this made me 15 minutes late for my own Birthday party.  But as I liked to say, "I wasn't late.  You were all early.."

Frankie and Benny's have amazing food and the portions are big enough for me!  The waiters placed us on a long table along the front of the resturant and that meant that everyone could see us, and people kept asking the waiter to ask us what the pitchers were called that we were drinking; this started to get annoying after a while. I was so excited when I bought my first legal drink.  I casually strolled up the bar and asked for a Woo Woo cocktail, all prepared to be asked for ID. And then the woman didn't even ask for my ID!  I was secretly gutted, I knew that if that was any other day prior to my 18th I would've been asked for ID, ha.  I've decided to keep the receipt for that first drink and I'm going to place it in a little keep-sake box. We ate our food and had a couple of drinks before we finally left the resturant as it was closing.

My mum and a friends mum picked me and 7 friends up and the rest got driven to my house by a friend who has already passed her driving test.  However I will never understand how she managed to pass her test.  She apparently stopped at a green light, drove in the wrong lane around a round-about and stalled 5 times.  Not to mention it took her 40 minutes to get to my house, when the journey normally averages at around 5 minutes. Rant over.

At my house my Dad had bought a tonne of alcohol and we had a party.  I can't fully remember what actually happened, but there's a lot of cool photographs on my friends camera. Nor do I remember falling asleep or people leaving.  All I know is that when I woke-up I wasn't hungover.  But I did have a stiff shoulder and a dodgy neck.

I had work yesterday (Saturday) and I was rushed off my feet.  I finally got to serve customers tickets to The Girl with a Dragon Tattoo and I even got to serve alcohol!  But TGWADT was sold out and as I result I ran around behind the kiosk like a headless chicken, or at least how I would imagine a chicken without a head to run.  A funny story is that my manager turned the air-con on thinking that it would blow out hot air, but weirdly it blew out hot air.  So we were stood there all night wondering why we were all so freakin' hot.  And the obvious answer would be that the air-con was blowing out hot air.  I do really hate my job.

Today, I prepared for my driving test (which I hope I don't fail).  My driving instructor doesn't think I'm ready for my test, but I think I am, so I'm going to take it soon.  I also watched The Inbetweeners Movie with my family.  I do not recommend you do this with a 12 year-old boy in the room or your parents.  It just creates an awkward silence and the response of, "Now that's why I'm not letting you go on holiday in the Summer."

I've just realised that I have my first exam in exactly a weeks time tomorrow.  And as I've previously stated I haven't started revising.  This can only mean a tragedy is in the near distance. So, I better get my bum in gear and start revising, German History 1871-1925 here I come!

Adios

P.s. My Kindle rocks.

PARTY PLANNING

Frankie and Benny's is where my soiree will be taking place on Friday. EEP!

Last night I enjoyed a late night chat with one of my bestest friends.  Due to my new found inability to sleep, due to the Christmas holidays, I found myself wide awake at 3AM. Again. We both got onto the topic of my 18th Birthday and what I would like to do. And then that's where all the party planning began.

However for the past 2 months friends have been asking me constantly what I am going to do.  College friends have asked me what I'm going to do and then quickly reminded me that if I don't do anything I'll regret it when I'm old and wrinkly.  I've been told numerous times to, "Enjoy being young, you'll be old and grey before you know it." The latest actually came yesterday whilst I was in work.  A work collegue asked me whether or not I would like to go out with everyone from work, and I just couldn't resist the idea! We spoke briefly about going out together about 3 weeks ago.  During a works Christmas get-together we went to the local Wetherspoons where I experienced the cocktails titled: Woo Woo and Black Magic for the very first time.  They were delish and as a result of my Thursday night binge I suffered for my mischief the very next day at 7AM when I had to wake-up for College.  To sum up the night I had a really good laugh and as I result I want to do it again, once I'm legal.   

I've always been a fairly quite girl who had a phobia of throwing a party and no one turning up.  Even though I know deep down people would obviously turn up, it has still prevented me throwing a big Birthday bash (that is why I'm not having a hall party with my entire year group, instead I've settled for 14 close pals). But now that my 18th is in less than a weeks time I've finally gained enough courage to host a small get-together with my friends. 

As I wrote previously I was discussing my plans with a close friend last night.  We decided upon the idea of going to Nando's for a meal and then back to my house for a party.  However when I called Nando's today I experienced some rather rude customer service.The woman on the phone rudely told me that I couldn't book a table for Friday night and then hung-up, even though I had told her that there would be 14 people coming.  So from that ignorant phone call I decided to take my business elsewhere... FRANKIE AND BENNY'S IT IS! The woman on the phone there was extemely polite and actually had great customer service skills.  When I informed her it would be for my 18th Birthday she got all excited and suggested that they could put balloons on the table for me.  Now that's what I call customer service.

So with 1 more day before I'm back in College and 2 more days before my official Birthday, I've got a million-and-one things to do.  Not only do I have to find a great dress for Friday night (squeal!), I need to do a History essay (boo!) and starts some revision (even bigger boo!).

Roll on my Birthday! Woop!

P.s. I'm loving blogging.